Friday, June 26, 2015

Jesus said, "Come to Me, all who are wearied and burdened, and I will give you rest."

Today, it is too depressing to be on fb.

Do people not understand? Are we not learning from history?

God does not change. He is the same forever and always.

It saddens me to see friends being lead astray. Don't go to the world, it doesn't love you. Not like Jesus.

Did anyone you know die for your sins? Oh wait, that was Jesus, the only one who could.

Are we not appreciative? At the very least?

We are as filthy rags. Every one of us. We all make bad choices.

Yes, the world is run by a bunch of sinners. Churches are lead by a bunch of sinners. I am a sinner.

Praise God for redeeming us through His Son! What a wonderful Savior we have!

Sometimes, we don't want to think about our Savior. We want what we feel like wanting.

Not all is bad. We do need sleep, food, water, etc. to survive.

I'm talking lustful things. Too much food to where it controls us. Looking at porn. Being in wrongful relationships. The list could go on.

Have we not learned from Sodom and Gomorrah?

The Bible is very clear. God created man and woman, and His original plan was for one man and one woman to be married. The end.

Why are we questioning God? Challenging Him? Where is the respect for His ultimate authority?

I do not expect the world to understand. They do not want God.

But for those who call themselves children of God, to be standing with the world on this issue--this pains me so much.

Why do we have laws against stealing? Maybe someone can't help themselves and they need to do it. We should make that legal. Forget that God's against it.

He is also against adultery, and oh boy, is our country in a hot mess with that right now.

Have we no fear of God?

I think therein lies the ultimate reason of why. Why our country is heading into moral decline.

Thankfully, my hope is built on nothing less than Jesus' blood and righteousness.

The world around me may fall, but God is my strength. The rock on which I stand.

His ways are good and pure. And while I personally fail on a daily basis, His love, kindness, mercy, grace, compassion--always there for me. I don't deserve it. At all.

My sins, I do not want to tell them all.

I do not want to judge others, because I know I am just as guilty before the King.

I am sad when those put in charge of the people fail us.

Not surprised though.

The spiritual battle is real, it always has been. We do not understand everything that goes on unseen.

So we pray. To the Almighty God, who has the ultimate power.

We chose to go against Him in the garden. The fellowship was broken then. Mankind could not fix that on their own, that's why we so desperately needed a Savior. Our lives depended on it.

How great our God is! To give the ultimate gift.

I have a son, two in fact. I can't imagine.

God did it for us. And even more unfathomable, He still created us, knowing we would make the choice.


He loves us, and so much wants us to be in fellowship with Him.

I desire for people to have the relationship I do with God, to know Him and talk to Him, and discover Him through the Bible.

He is truth and life. Nothing else, no one else, will satisfy like He does.

We were created with a God shaped hole, as one songwriter puts it. We crave Him. Only some don't know, so they keep searching for something to fill it, but it doesn't fit quite right.

The answer is Jesus.

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

A few additional notes on yesterday.

~ "Because I'm a planner, Josh!"


~The fact that all forecasts did not predict rain for the day, and we got hit with a thunderstorm.


~Asians...... make awesome technological stuff.

~Driving in hard rain--not something I do in CA. Brought back memories of KS & MO days! Funny, because those were the two states we were driving in.

~First time waiting for the Prowler, meow, there was an embracing couple next to Jillian & I. Made me miss Jeremy a lot.

~18, only we were in the 1-16 lane... legend of the Steel Hawk guy continues.

~Kudos to my parents who had fun with the 4 while I was gone--two parks, McDonald's w/ a playplace, nap, dinner, and then I showed up early--would have been back way late.

~We touched the Mamba. So we had that going for us, which was nice.. We saw a video of the Mamba, which was almost like being on it.

~Private Eyes. Guessing 80s.

~650 was it?

~Timberwolf had been down for a month, an employee told us.

~Didn't have room for them, but still thinking about those crab fries... maybe next time.

~Someone may have had a cup of water instead of pop, need to confirm.

~We filled that locker like a boss. No tall guy going to be swiping those size 16s on top! Gotta protect!

~Leader like Dad.

~No sunburns. Bonus. Overcast made it cooler too.

~Upon returning and telling the tales, one of my daughters asked if it was worth it. Yes.

~Sometimes you're handed rain, and you get drenched. Sometimes you see a Lamborghini, and you don't get to ride it.

~Change sometimes throws people off. As in, coins.

~The planner threw a map away, mind blown. LOL. Ok, I didn't really laugh there, but it was a funny sibling bluff move.

~Silence of going under overpasses.

~White SUV on the way.


~Provision of new worker in photo booth.

~Epic trip.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Notes on Today

~We (Jillian, Josh, Ben & I) hit up Worlds of Fun today.

~There were a lot of highs and lows. Emotionally and literally.

~Where to start.

~Leaving town at 7am, we arrived at 10am. Got through the ticket gate, then stashed our stuff in a locker in Oceans of Fun, then landed in line for the Mamba around 10:40am.

~Mamba hadn't yet opened...

~After sweating in line, they opened it up just after 11am. We barely missed getting on the first car, but were in line for the second go around.

~Buckled up, we launched a foot, and were told to get off and for everyone to leave. Maintenance. For reals?!?!

~Disheartened at this happening, we ventured forth to other rides.

~Detonator, Steel Hawk. Patriot. Patriot. Spinning Dragons. I laughed through the whole SD ride, I think I needed some caloric intake. It was a fun ride though!

~ (We learned the Patriot is smoother closer to the front.)

~Took a lunch break. 2 slices of pizza and pop. 2 slices of pizza and pop. Polish sausage w/sauerkraut and pop. Chicken cutlets w/honey mustard sauce. Bonus points if you can correctly identify which person ordered what.

~Boomerang. Ben said never again. Too scrunched in car, shoulders were in pain. (Tall person problems.) Another of the group didn't care for the shoulder harness either.

~Prowler. Prowler. Second go, guys in the front most car, and Josh bought that picture. Ask him about it.

~Mamba still not up and running, time for Oceans of Fun.

~Hurrican Falls--my personal favorite of the day! A level 5 thrill ride, which has room for up to four passengers on a huge tube, with lots of handles to hang onto. Insane curves which threaten to flip the tube; it was great stuff. We started dry, finished wet. The soaking splash at the finish helped seal that.

~Predators' Plunge. Not for the faint hearted. You step into a chamber with a see through floor, and a see through door gets closed over top of you. Suddenly the floor disappears and you fall into a tube water slide that whisks you through a series of turns to the end.

~We were in line for Predators' Plunge a second time, as there are three colors to try out; Josh was next in line, with Ben right behind him. The attendant had to shut down the ride due to lightening.

~Denied again when so close?! Oceans of Fun shut down like the snap of fingers.

~We thought we'd try to get on the Mamba before rain hit (as we did finally see it carrying riders while we were in line for PP!), but then the rain hit.

~Getting soaked with every step, we walked back to our vehicle, which was the farthest away it could be from where we started. We were completely drenched in the downpour before we were halfway there.

~Seated in the vehicle at 3pm with 7 hours of the park technically being open, but looking at at least 2 to 2.5 hours of rain in the near future, we decided to call it a day and head home.

~Not getting to ride the Mamba was definitely a bummer, and not ideal. Not getting to explore more of Oceans of Fun, same. For the four of us, it was our first time into Oceans of Fun EVER, and we had just wet our appetites for the place.

~Thankful we had some good rides on good coasters: Patriot, Prowler, Spinning Dragons; also on the Detonator, and the two we got to experience at OofF.

~Steel Hawk was alright, but I don't think any of us would have opted to go again, or to deal with the guy running the ride.

~Meow. On the other side of the coin, the guy manning the microphone at Prowler was hilarious. Loving his job to the fullest! They should pay him more. Definitely made waiting for that ride more enjoyable.

~Thankful for the memories! The epic trip where we were on the Mamba and then didn't get to ride it; where OofF shut down right as we were next for the water slide; how we got drenched on our way out.

~Definitely going to have to go back next year and try again. Word.

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Getting Our Hike On

Monday's Hike at FO.

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Bible Musings

It's been interesting reading the Bible through in chronological order. Right now I'm in 1 Samuel/Psalms, and it's neat to read the psalms David wrote after stressful situations. I would imagine that being hunted as much as he was, would bring the feelings out.

And yet, how God used those stressful times in his life to inspire him to write the psalms, which have helped countless individuals get through tough times in their life.

I love how the Word of God is living and active, sharper than any two edged sword! There really is no better book to read.

1 Samuel has been a favorite starting point of OT reading for me, although sometimes I start at Joshua or Judges, and then read through to the end of Chronicles, or sometimes Esther. I like the action!

It was good to start at the beginning and read through what I normally don't gravitate to; getting that full picture this time. Excited to get to Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Isaiah and the minor prophets, it's been awhile since I've visited those.

For the NT, I really enjoy the epistles, although I don't always go through Romans. I probably read Acts more. I feel like I should read through the gospels more than I do. I like Revelation, and this may sound weird, but I try not to read it too much.

Have to now confess failure, or at least failure for now, on the Psalm 139 memorizing project. Kids and I started off strong with verse one the first week; by week two we were fading, and week three never happened, nor #4. Plan B sometime! Thinking of how I could better implement it.

Slightly on a Biblical topic, I've seen both Noah & Exodus (the movies). Well, not really Biblical at all; let's say, with a Biblical starting point or a Biblical flair. Both, admittedly, rather ridiculous on so many points it's too numerous to dive into. Not sure where I was going with the start of this paragraph. I liked Exodus better for two reasons. Slightly less ridiculous on a whole, and also, Christian Bale.

Russell Crowe is a good actor, but he doesn't have the tall, dark & handsome thing going for him like CB & KR. Or Jeremy, who has TDH pegged to the nth degree.

Every time I see a golden field I do think of Gladiator though. First date with my TDH man! We're nearing on our 12th anniversary now. That seemed so oldish when we were back in the lower single digits. Just like the 20s seem so old when you're in HS, and every age above yours in grade school. Perspective.

After 25, I've been chill with getting older. And I hope part of that has to do with more focus on life beyond the now. Some reality might be just less time to think, haha. Life got busy real quick after I turned 25 and had Ada! Full speed ahead.

Right now I'm in a couple of books: JJ Virgin's Sugar Impact Diet, and Praying in the Spirit. Body and soul, baby, body and soul.

I can't think of any "diet" book that I have read before so I think this might be the first, but I picked it up after being impressed with a podcast I listened to of hers. I do believe sugar is a HUGE, if not, the BIGGEST, culprit of American society's downhill health spiral. That being said, I read it with a grain of salt (haha, sweet & salty) and to me a couple of things that she brings up I think are just "her thing" and not actually scientific, but most of the book so far I've been good with, and have learned some things. A lot of it Jeremy had already taught me, through his journey of running & dieting.

The Praying in the Spirit book is a tiny little thing, but packs a punch. I appreciate that. No excess wordage--very to the point. Identifiable. He writes in a comforting manor that doesn't seem judgy, but is a come alongside and be a help type.

That's how I feel Peter Brandon is on He's become one of my favs. Old guy that is gentle in the Spirit, you know? Full of understanding, yet, here is what we need to work on.

The more I get into the diet book, the more she ever so slightly mentions her diet products for sale; the more I get into the prayer book or into a message on vfc, the more I realize how much I need Jesus. Not going to buy anyone's diet products when I can choose what to eat and how and when to exercise and sleep, but I will take the narrow path to the cross. Pilgrim's Progress! There's an old story for ya.

I will never stop needing to get my feet washed while on this earth.

That's kind of a hard thing to think about sometimes. No matter how hard I try, I am going to stumble and fall. Praise God He works through our weaknesses! And praise Him for loving kindnesses that are new every morning. I know I need them. What a Savior we have in Jesus!

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Mom Day. Because Momhood. Mothering Moms. Mums. Mamas. Muthas. Mothers.

I forgot to take along my camera to the beach today. It was ok.

The day started out great, and I got some running jaunts in with Hays. Church, beach, home. Nice day.

In the morning the girls presented me with several wonderful cards they had made--two of them they had each made a month ago! Hayley had organized that because she thought MD was last month so she wanted to be prepared. Then she found out it was this month. They had time to make more, plus some in school.

I love my kiddos so much!

Jeremy asked what I wanted to do today, so I picked the beach. Funny thing, one of the kids made a comment with beaches & Kansas in the same sentence, while we were at the beach. Something like, they were trying to figure out why there weren't beaches or waves like what we were seeing, in Kansas. I had to explain that KS is in the middle of the US...

Something got lost in the travel. (As in, maybe they don't really pay attention when we drive back? Or maybe they just figured they haven't seen all of that state, so there must be oceanfront somewhere?) Kids are curious creatures.

Or maybe growing up here, they figure everyone has access to a beach where they live. Logical, right? You go with what you know.

Anyways, a lot of moms were apparently wanting to go to the beach, as it was a happenin spot. Beautiful weather. Each of us paired off for a ride. First Jeremy & Ada did bumper cars together; Hayley & I went on the new ride for the first time for both of us, the one Ben was too tall for last time he was out; boys did helicopter.

We ate first thing when we got there, and the hostess seating us asked me, "Are they all yours?" Oh, you teenager, you. LOL. I think it's a funny question.

Maybe it's one of those starting point questions. It's Mother's Day, here is a mom-looking type with a dad-looking type, and four kids. I should ask if they're all theirs! Maybe they picked up an extra accidentally whilst strolling into the establishment. I should check.

I'm a goofball.

And really I just wanted to use the word 'whilst'.

And because I don't think four kids is a lot! If I had, like, 10, then maybe. And I'm only picking that number because I saw a picture of a family with ten kids the other day, and I was like, I want more kids.


Jeremy just strolled in. "I forgot to take along my camera today. And that is why none of you will read this post." I laughed hysterically and asked if I could put that. He said I can put whatever I want. Which is true, but I'm only doing it because it's MD. Jeremy is always so on point, I love that guy! I do do the blog for fam back home, but also so I can remember at least a tiny bit of what I did with my life back in the day, you know? Memory is a fading thing.


Happy Mother's Day to the world, because without mothers, none of us would be here. Except for Adam & Eve, and we don't want to be like them, the sinners. Oh wait, we are. Praise God that He loves us more than our mothers! Hallelujah. And I've got a good Mom & MIL too. Thankful for them.

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Blake, Babies, Psalm 139

At first glance, nothing seems out of the ordinary. But these boys, especially Blake, look a little younger.

Oh my heart, as PW says. Baby face!

This is two months shy of a year ago. How time flies.

The pictures are still the same in that frame. From when Ada was 6 months old. I keep meaning to change them out, but apparently that is something hard for me to get motivated about. I had other framed pictures from that summer trip in the kitchen, but they got taken down for a spice rack and shelves years ago.

Baby fever hits in the spring, when new babies are popping up out of nowhere and the air has a hint of change & anticipation.

I remind myself of how we half-joked, when I was pregnant with Blake, that if it was a red headed boy that would complete our set and we were done. A sign from God.

It still tickles me that that happened!!!

And I need to be content. It's been hard in some ways moving out of the baby stage; I miss a lot of things about it. Not so much the hard things about it, but that comes with the territory of babyhood.

It has been fun keeping up with the kids.

Still, I miss the snuggles and smelling my baby, and watching the stages of growth they go through.

And the boys, they'd be such cute older brothers!

But someone has to be the end of the train, and Blake is holding down that position well.

Very thankful for my crew, I love them all so much!!!

We started memorizing Psalm 139 this week, the kids & I. At the retreat we talked some about sowing seeds, and one of the aspects of that concept being with kids.

For well over a year, maybe longer, I've felt it would be cool to learn a verse each week with the kids.

When I saw Joy's chalkboard wall with the verses, I felt more motivated, as it's good to feel confirmation through others as they have the same thought and actually do it. Not that I needed confirmation that it was a good idea, but you know what I mean. See it implemented.

I had written H&A notes with a little present and hid them on their beds for when I was gone, and in them I did mention I'd like to start memorizing that chapter.

Then the retreat, and then Hayley talked to me about it when I was back, and she wanted to write out the verses. So she wrote out the first verse on Sunday, and she's taken on the responsibility to write out the next verse each Sunday. Love her helpfulness!

I had her calculate when we'd be done with the chapter, and it looks to be at Jeremy's birthday. I said that's cool, then you guys can recite the whole chapter for Daddy on his birthday! So hopefully we are able to stick with it and get that done.